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12 May 2009 @ 12:29 pm

Life has shifted once again.

Working at a Mediation Center in St. Mary's County as an Americorp...

Going back to school again.

Finally getting some money.

One step closer to being a Marylander... Marylandian? I don't know.

Happy in life for the time being.

....

I'll write more later. I need to start writing a bit more in general. Probably use this journal to post stories as I go along. Good times.

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02 March 2009 @ 08:44 am

I am currently overjoyed.

I can't express the greatness of snow. It might be a holdover from childhood, where school and other such responcibilities were cast to the wayside as a result of snow. But I doubt it. I think it's more that no matter what you're doing, how you're living, if it snows hard enough you have to take a break. Even if that break is just the thirty minutes to shovel your sidewalk, clear your car off, whatever, you have to take it. It's an automatic slowdown.

YAY SNOW!

The feeling in my head:

amused

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02 January 2009 @ 10:50 am

HA!

( I am a rogue druid out for blood?! )

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16 December 2008 @ 09:00 am

It came from the basement!!!!

While some may claim moving in to a basement of a friend isn't the biggest step in life, some might be neglecting the fact that said friend has a PS3 and a copy of that crazy Starwars game where you can be the apprentice of Vader... Force Unleashed? Awwww yeah.

In other news. I start work in near future. Life is ok.

Warhammer looks cool. Not sure I could play it, my computer is shit and the horses make me feel as if I'm about to vomit from looking at jiggly horse ass.

Uh...

I've got nothing important to say.

Viva la Northrend.

Also...

I like sleeping! Yay sleep. <3

The feeling in my head:

awake

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09 October 2008 @ 05:18 pm

The stars have aligned... sort of!

Well. Life is all kinds of good with a big gaping hole of bad lingering behind it all, but even the bad is bitter-sweet reminding me why I'm bothering with the rest of it.

I'll start the job hunt in two weeks - probably a bad idea, with all the seasonal work about. Mr.B, I'm going to bug you for advice soon. Don't worry dude. You can flip me off and yell at me as per usual, I still respect you.

I'm doing well in school. Haven't screwed up a quiz or reading assignment thus far. Academic Advisor blew me off today, but I found the school gym so that was cool. I meet with advisor tuesday now, here's to hoping I can figure out a way to get out of school faster. Yayayaya.

Err, right on. Comic due out the 18th of this month - well, not out out. In actuality, it'll just be a black and white copy of words and art, then we'll decide where to go from there. It's pretty awesome looking THUS far. Suggestions were taken in to consideration.

"With out you, everything falls apart."

What a sucky, yet awesome song.

The sound in my head: NIN - Perfect Drug

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29 September 2008 @ 09:58 pm

A moment of sanity amidst the chaos

The full throttle approach to life is engaging and nervewracking.

I went to the Ohio Ren Faire this weekend. It was a-ok! I want to be a pirate when I grow up.

Hung out at the Book Loft in German Village, one of the greatest book stores ever. Seriously. I now have a new appreciation for German Village.

Uh. I almost fell to temptation and bought the Sinestro Corp War trade but no. I will not.

I went out to eat, which I rarely do. My grandma commented on it and made me feel weird as hell. FANTASTIC.

Saw Darby Creek.

It's amazing what lingers on the edge of your vision, rarely getting glimpsed.

I need to get back to my homework and all - one day. I need a real job soon too. I'll start assauting friends for references soon enough.

A question, to ponder until I write in this thing again:

What makes me happy? Figured I'd try to seperate emotion from reality in an attempt to refine a little wisdom from the soil of my decomposing brain.

The feeling in my head:

contemplative

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19 September 2008 @ 10:01 am

The gaping maw of the future stretches forth to consume all

I'm back to work - been there before, of course. I need to find a real job and have it lined up for when this school thing trickles down. Mr.B, hurry up and open that business idea. Give me a job. Come on.

Fates and gods alike collapse before the onslaught of the future. I think I collapsed when I was 12 and I'm only now picking myself up again. That's fine. Better late than never. Or in the words of Steppenwolf, it's never too late to start all over again.

Classes start the 24th. It's now the 19th so I have 5 days. It's that close already? In 6 days I'll have visitation rights to my one true happiness. That'll be wicked. SO it's not a horrible week, it's just a busy week. I'm not sure what to make of everything these days. So many changes, so many ways to get confused. Real life, coming right up. Just a momentary delay as the stars align and the planets do the solar shuffle. News at 11!

The feeling in my head:

confused

The sound in my head: Mama - My Chemical Romance

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18 September 2008 @ 12:54 pm

The sun, she is a cruel temptress

Went outside alone for the first time in a few days - recent trips had been in the company of hotness, so it was a lonely, sobering experience.

The sun burned my arm as I drove. Burned the left side of my neck too. Curse my irish blood. CURSE IT. I'm going to start carrying sunblock in the glovebox for real this time. The pain is crazy.

My cousin got his finger literally torn off. It's back on though. He should worry about that. It can't be helped that body parts, once detached from the body, gain evil sentience and attempt to destroy the host body to garner blessed freedom once more. Fear the body for it is flesh and all flesh bears with in it the seeds of sin. I should play a vampire again. Veramourn was just the tip of the iceburg of dramatic dumbness in my brain. Grrrrr.

Found a copy of Dragon Warrior 2 in my glovebox while cleaning out the car. I'm not sure why I put it there. I'm not even sure how long it has been since I cleaned the car! I fixed the trunk too. It doesn't pop up now. Who's a genius? That's right. Me. Go on. Say me. Say my name. Look me in the eyes... err... It was a long week.

That all said and done. I'm going to stare in to space for a few hours while pretending to meet an imaginary deadline of writing!

Edit: I found a bottle of garlic in my trunk. Also a broken wooden fence post and a mirror. I'm pretty sure that was from camping at Buckeye Lake but maybe I also hunt vampires and black out from the fear of facing the unknown like some Lovecraftian hero. Both are equally true, both are lies.

The feeling in my head:

contemplative

The sound in my head: In my darkest hour - Megadeth

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18 September 2008 @ 10:08 am

Words that have meaning beyond simple linguistic communication of mundane events

...Got back from another trip to the east. Brought back an addiction, just like Marco Polo and all the others who went east only to realize that a beautiful flower carried a deadly venom that would eventually devour the brain and soul. Opium in their case. In my case, we'll say it's similar and just as effective.

As a result, my mind is overflowing with thoughts and ideas. I'm reading a few books all at once that's kind of putting my thoughts in weird places.

The Prince by Machiavelli keeps getting flipped through. His notions have been expounded upon, ripped apart, and thought through for ages by people far more advanced in communication and political accumen than myself. None the less, I'm pretty damn happy that I'm reading it. The nature of power in general is a good concept to grasp and any view on it is a good view. Not my first read of it, but it probably won't be the last either.

Daughter of Destiny by R.A.V. Salsitz. It's the next book after The Unicorn Dancer. Fantastic stuff. High fantasy in the vein of Tolkien with out all the baggage and dry descriptions. Grrrrrrrrrr. Tolkien makes me wince with words.

Secret War! It's a Bendis comic mini-series with Gabriele Dell'otto on art. This one isn't exactly new but I'm back to reading it again. Bendis is a hit and miss guy, as far as my enjoyment of his work. He'll make characters these epic, legendary, human types that you want to read about, while at the same time he'll throw in some of the dumbest dialogue. Anything that has Cap and Nick Fury growling at each other is hot shit. Plus this bit of dialogue is so sexy as to make my head explode, so all Bendis quirks are forgiven:

Daredevil: "Natasha Romanov. What are you doing here?"
Black Widow: "Supposedly stifling my femininity so I blend in with this repressed culture. But I can't help it if I make even a burka look good."

Also flipped through 30 days of Night yet again, some Secret Invasion stuff just to keep it real, and the Captain America Omnibus of the Brubaker run culminating in the death of Cap. I have every issue after the omnibus as well, but the Steve Rogers as Captain America is more or less my favorite part of Brubakers run so far. That man is a great man. Rogers is who I'm refering to!

There's also this meditation CD I've been listening to. Hemi-sync. That is craaaaaaazy stuff.

Alright. On with real life. I'll ramble more here at some point.

The feeling in my head:

awake

The sound in my head: MC Chris - White Kids Love Hiphop

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12 September 2008 @ 01:10 pm

Dazed and confused

I'm really liking where things are.

Comic idea with zombies? Going smooth as hell. Ideas and thoughts from people gave me a firmer grasp. So rearranged things with same basic tone, going to do flashbacks with forward pushing story. First time in a long time that I've been all "OMG I CAN DO THIS" and it's a fantastic feeling. Got that energy flowing in me. Got that move to make it work. Grrr. Happy thoughts.

Elsewise:

Captain America with Brubaker at the helm? FANTASTIC.

Green Lantern with Geoff Johns at the helm? FUCKING FANTASTIC.

I am so glad I didn't give up on you, my true friends. You came back from your drunken binges and self doubt and wowed me yet again. I'm refering to comics here.

The feeling in my head:

amused

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05 September 2008 @ 10:18 am

State of the mind

I've had my sleep schedule all screwed up, but school starts soon.

I'm back home, I'm seriously lonely, but I'm not sad. I'm happy. The world seems a better, slightly different place than when I left. Everything is brighter. I got a raise at work despite bailing on them for a full two months. Ha!

Lots of things are changing, but I don't see change as a bad thing. I used to fear it but now I crave it. I want better things. I want happy times. I'm tired of living in a dark, angst ridden world where the sun never quite climbs beyond the clouds and the snow never quite melts.

Relax. Life is good. All the bad is just leading to good. All the paths that lead the way are winding and all the lights that guide you there are blinding. That's right. I quoted Oasis.

I'm back to work again. I feel like a real life person now. I'll be gone until 5. When I get back I'm going to jog. I'm going to run in place like a dork. Fantastic. Bring it on, world. I'm going to beat your ass and make you my bitch. Grrrrrr.

The feeling in my head:

amused

The sound in my head: Angry Angel - Imogen Heap

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12 August 2008 @ 04:18 pm

Dr.Doom.... DOOOOOOOOOOM

Stole it from

overfreak. Still a winner.

Your result for The Supervillain Archetype Test...

The Megalomaniac

The Megalomaniac is the most prestigious of super-villain classes. If anyone is ever going to rule the world, it will probably be you.

Your main goal in life is power and domination, you have the tools to do it, and you know it. Megalomaniacs are intelligent and forceful, and they tend not to let their emotions cloud their judgment. Most of the time. They are usually found, or not found, working at the top of a huge structured organization, though many prefer to work by themselves.

The Megalomaniac has but one flaw, but its an invariably fatal one; arrogance. He knows that he can take over the world, and he isn't afraid to let you know, often elaborately and in great detail. They often do not foresee the fly in their ointment, because they do not want to admit that such a fly could exist.

Sample Megalomaniacs: Dr. Doom, Lex Luthor, Ras al'Ghul, Kang the Conqueror, Emperor Palpatine, Brain

Take The Supervillain Archetype Test at HelloQuizzy

The feeling in my head:

amused

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12 August 2008 @ 11:16 am

Val Day: a day that shall live in infamy

TODAY IS VAL DAY. BYE!

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07 August 2008 @ 10:35 am

Wake up, you're asleep at the wheel

I am awake now. Oddly enough.

Yesterday was a damned great day. I spent the entire day with the coolest person EVAR. So great they deserve an A instead of an E.

Food was good. Walks were good. Historic sites were good. All in all, I'm pretty glad I woke up today to remember yesterday.

Also. Soul Calibur World of Warcraft characters are the shit.

And Loaded Gun = Sex music.

The sound in my head: Hed Noize - Loaded Gun

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04 August 2008 @ 12:30 pm

I come bringing death...

A great weekend. Everything was fantastic. I tasted many things I had never tasted, while barely whetting my desires. Life is good.

Note for future generations: IF YOU LEAVE YOU TELL valzillaWHERE YOU ARE OR SHE WILL KILL YOU.
THAT IS NOT A JOKE!!!!!

The feeling in my head:

content

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01 August 2008 @ 11:35 am

And the sky darkens, the clouds roll across the field, and the knight stumbles to a crawl...

I'm awake. That's really the start here. Light. I awoke to a friend patting my leg and being nice to me. Rather than continue this trend I kicked her away and told her to let me sleep more. That's fine. She was ok with that. She was even polite and gave me a hug before I went back to sleep.

Time flew faster than I realized. I slept too long. I woke up with my nose stuffed full of things I'd rather not describe. I tried to be in my happy mood, from yesterday, but my head started to hurt. I sat down to another, very close friend on this here distance communication device, and began to feel even worse through no fault of her's. I felt that old desire, the one to rip apart everyone who even looks at me. It's a horrible, sick feeling. A feeling that should be held in check.

I then talked to the first friend. She was annoyed. I think I figured a few things out, while still glaring and dragging my feet.

It's hard to deal, when all you want is everyone to be happy. Not everyone is going to be happy at all times. It doesn't mean it's the end of the world. It doesn't mean you need to hurt yourself and try to make them happy, be that by distracting them or threatening them. Let them be. That's the moral of the story. People will come to you when they need comfort, or you can watch and discern better times to move in to give said comfort. Life is a long, weird, circular thing with all kinds of dumb. Everyone goes up and down. Just got to stop acting like the downs are the end of the world and let people enjoy their drama. Every problem can not be fixed, despite man mentality stating otherwise.

I WAX PHILOSOPHIC. GO ME. BYE.

Where I be at: VA

The feeling in my head:

calm

The sound in my head: .hack//sign soundtrack - Key of the Twilight

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31 July 2008 @ 08:14 am

Last night I had a dream.

It was a rather normal dream, it involved me being drunk and eloquently telling a story outloud to a rapt audience.

"A long, long time ago as these stories so often begin, in a small village in the countryside there lived a man. This man was not rich nor brave nor overtly wise, yet his tale lives on in many guises. For you see romantics yet weep to recall the firey passion with which this man loved, and even now the warmth of his heart can be felt by any fool wishing a maiden's kiss, a maiden's smile, or a maiden's gaze."

And so forth went the story. The women swooned. The curtain closed, the applause came. Dream life outweighs real life sometimes.

Done this a few times this past week and it's odd as hell but I jumped out of bed suddenly and stared around the strange room I'm in. I had heard a noise, I thought someone was trying to wake me up. I fell asleep listening to computer speakers, waiting for the recieved chat sound to wake me up. I'm a dork at the core of me, it would seem.

And now I'm writing on Livejournal. Life is strange. Why do I even care? Ah well!

Where I be at: VA

The feeling in my head:

awake

The sound in my head: Weird ass beeping noise that won't stop

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28 July 2008 @ 10:02 am

So very, very tired...

Well, I am awake. That is a start. Perhaps it's a very good start.

My head hurts just a little. My body aches. My ideas are pouring forth, with no outlet save a blank sheet and many, many random thoughts.

I spent time this weekend, finding something that I had lost. It was good.

I watched movies. That was good.

I slept some. That was good.

Uh. That's all I got. Yeah. Alright then.

It was... Awesome. Hahahahahaha. That word cracks me up.

The feeling in my head:

amused

The sound in my head: Failure - Stuck on you

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24 July 2008 @ 06:13 pm

No words in this forever.

Just wanted to see if there were any words manifesting.

I'm pretty happy at the moment. In VA again. Having a good old time. Wrote a lot. Comic scripts coming along at snail pace. Uh. That's all. Going out to dinner. Going to have very serious conversation. Going to try to find something.

Amber is pretty cool. The way it is formed. Random thought.

Where I be at: VA

The feeling in my head: smirking

The sound in my head: Mr.B believes in Reznor

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19 March 2007 @ 12:48 pm

Out in DC again. Hitting my creative stride, as it were. Digging new music and new vibes. Playing WoW and watching Justice League cartoon. My god. Batman/Superman have the greatest comic book relationship ever and they really hit it in Justice League. "You're not always right, Bruce." "Shut up, Clark."

The Merintal Monarchy is in shambles. Many factions vie for the throne as the church attempts to cleanse the land of the unclean. Good times ahead in story land.

Yes, I did read the book of revelations before the song but none the less I blame Avenge Sevenfold.

At any rate, back to playing with the baby and thinking story through. The baby is so awesome.

The sound in my head: Avenged Sevenfold - The beast and the harlot

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